Sending Out an S.O.S!

I stepped into the shower this morning, and as per usual, allowed my thoughts to wander. My mind settled on the issue of the moment…I’ve started writing again…so now what??? I had nothing. Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a flash of movement scurry across the glass door and settle on the corner of the floor. I let out an involuntary *small* scream as I noted it was a big hairy spider. It wasn’t moving anymore, so I just kept a watchful eye on it every moment or two. My mind now centered on the current theme of the morning…fear. I had just finished watching the TED Talk by Sting, “How I started writing again” about his long struggle with writer’s block.  (If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend it. Quite a powerful story, and his song Message in a Bottle is now a more poignant and vivid story in my mind because of it.) So, yes…I was afraid that the spider was going to do…something, but more than that I was afraid that my ideas of things to write about had dried up. After all, if it can happen to an artist like Sting, than who am I to be confident?

I have been reading a LOT of self -improvement and personal growth books and listening to speakers on Hay House radio in the past several months, so of course I recognized my “ego” starting up the same old drama and negative self-talk. So many different methods at improving oneself but they can be distilled into basics – the first step is to recognize your symptoms as they occur and counteract them. Reduce negativity. Emphasize the positive. Incorporate healthy habits for spiritual, physical, emotional, and mental aspects of your life. How you get there is what is different for everyone. My fear of running out of ideas was untested – it was just a figment of my imagination and not based on reality at all.  So as I talked my fear down and turned off the water, my attention focused back to the spider. Was it still alive? Was it going to jump at me if I tried to step over it?

I leaned over to discover my fear was a hair ball. How appropriate.

Have a great day everyone. Be Fearless!

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Revival of the Fittest

Ah well…what do they say about good intentions? Here it is – about 18 months since the last post…and what I have I written and accomplished since then?

Obviously I failed miserably at updating this blog. Also, I still do not speak Spanish. Perhaps I have learned (again) that I shouldn’t make a promise that I’m not sure I can keep. We’ll see. Image

I did check a few things off the list. I finished writing my book and did publish a copy for my son. I have been putting off publishing it for the public because when I really think about it, the prospect is a bit scary. I am coming to terms with it now, so efforts will go forward again to do a few edits and set it up in CreateSpace rather than Blurb so it can be easily available on Amazon.

I also completed my associates degree in business administration. With a 4.0 average, no less. I’m not using it though. I guess you could call it my backup plan but I am spending my time getting my passion work business off the ground.

I successfully became a grandma (Whew! That was hard!) to the cutest and sweetest little boy, but I am not able to visit often enough as his parents live in a different state.

Speaking of different states…my husband accepted a job position in the south. During this past summer he moved down to Georgia while I stayed in Minnesota to finish my semester in school and sell the house. Our son graduated from high school and decided to stay put, but he did help me pack up the moving truck when I followed Bob to the land of sunny skies and peach trees on every corner. We found and bought another house. Our first empty nest. I think I’m done moving for a while now, please and thank you. Some things you just can’t foresee happening though, right?

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